"Yet, O Lord, you are our Father. We are the clay, you are the potter..." Isaiah 64:8





Tuesday, May 20, 2014

A Glipse Back in Time (Part 1)

Hi friends!  I've decided to start blogging again this summer.  But I realize that my blog currently has some pretty gaping holes.  I wrote regularly during my gap year and again during the summer after my freshman year, but there is little to nothing on here about my college experience.  So I've decided to fill you in, to tell the untold stories of Washington and Lee from my first year to the present, at least the important ones.  And once I've done that, I'll reinstate my regular, weekly summer blogs.  But first, let's rewind.  This first post is one that I wrote after my freshman year but never put online.  I'll  start here (without editing it tooo much) and then pick up where I left off.  Hope you enjoy this ride in my time machine!  

A Glimpse Back in Time

It’s easy to tell stories of life’s adventures, to write about getting lost on bicycles in Uruguay or climbing waterfalls in the jungle just outside the Amazon.  And with the backdrop of such exciting tales, it’s even fairly easy to tell you what God showed me through those adventures.  But I fear that I deceive you by writing blog posts only when I’m hundreds of miles from home doing something exotic or experiencing poverty firsthand.  If you know me from my posts alone, your understanding of my life is surely askew.  Because there’s another story I’ve yet to tell.  It might not sound like an adventure.  There are no gypsies, no soups full of chicken feet, and no venomous spiders in my bathroom.  Instead, there’s just a humdrum of daily activity that doesn’t really make for the best story.  So I could skip this one.  I could let you keep believing that everything I do is either exciting or terrifying or hilarious.  I could…yet, I can’t.  Because THIS is the story through which God has changed my life.  THIS is who I am in the day to day.  Not an adventurer.  Not a world traveler.  Just me, a Potter’s Daughter.

Once upon a time, God invaded the life of a curly haired high school senior.  He’d always been a big part of her life, but just weeks after she uttered the prayer, “Here I am! Send me!” He truly took over.   Like a giant claw machine in an arcade, He lifted her out of Morgantown, sent her all over the world, and then gently set her back down in the heart of the Shenandoah Valley at a university where He would transform her life.

That’s where we begin our story…my story if somehow the curly hair reference wasn’t enough to give it away. I showed up at Washington and Lee University (hereafter "W&L") excited about volunteering, studying poverty, and getting involved in campus ministry.  But that excitement was pretty short lived.

The first real night I spent on campus was a disaster, and not just because I fell off my lofted bed (which really hurt and made me very glad that my roommate wasn’t planning to arrive for several more days).  Anyway, I learned quickly that following Jesus in college was going to be the hardest thing I’d ever done.  After roaming around campus with the only two people I could find who hadn’t gone out to the parties, I returned to my room and cried.  Hadn’t God heard me when I said, “Anywhere but a party school, Lord!”?  [Since I starting writing this almost 3 years ago, I’ve realized that pretty much every college could probably be considered a “party school,” but at the same time, I continue to insist that W&L is particularly so.] The night was horrible, and I spent the next day calling my closest friends at home and sobbing over the four years of misery I was sure to endure.  Never in a million years would I have guessed that just eight months later, I would be crying because I didn’t want to leave.

I spent the first week or so drowning in self-pity.  But eventually I had a change of heart.  Although I wasn’t sure why God had sent me to such a place of darkness, I figured it wasn’t to sit around and cry.  At that point, I had to take action.  I could join in with the other freshmen waiting in line for the bus to the frat parties, or I could resist.  And fully aware that it would be the lonelier path, I chose the latter.  I had no idea what I was getting into. 

Thankfully, I at least had the sense to know that there was nothing in the world that could do to change W&L on my own.  The culture of the school was the result of a couple hundred years, and I was very certain that it was going to take a miracle to bring light forth from the darkness.  But thankfully, I happened to have a pretty tight relationship with the Creator of the Universe.  And I believed that He would change our campus if we took the time to ask.  

So after about another week, I wiped away my bitter tears and put my game face on.  Without wasting time, I grabbed a friend and a dean and started up weekly prayer meetings in the library.  And little by little, God began to take control. 

It quickly became evident that an hour of prayer a week wasn’t going to cut it.  Although our Tuesday morning numbers faded away (probably at least partly due to the 7:30am start time), a tiny band of dedicated prayer warriors began to develop. Two became three and three became four as we spent hours in d-hall strategizing about how to conquer our school for Christ.  Though I’d rarely spent time with guys in the past, Brandon, Daniel, and Chris soon became my closest friends.                                                                                     
“What if we were to pray 5 hours a week?” asked Chris one day from the other side of a booth in d-hall.  Over the past month or so, Chris had become our leader.  He had experienced more of God than the rest of us, and He gave me vision to really know God's heart and see Him as my friend.  Chris challenged me to read the Bible more and to talk to God like a real person, and it began changing everything.

Looking back, I think Chris' question was probably rhetorical, but in that moment, my hungry heart would have agreed to pretty much anything to get more of Jesus. “Let’s do it!” I said, without hesitation.

I watched the three faces around me.  Brandon’s sparkling eyes reflected my excitement as he nodded vigorously.  Daniel didn’t seem so sure, but I knew he’d be willing to join.  And Chris just looked surprised.  I don’t think he’d actually expected us to say yes. Who wants to pray, anyway?

But we did.  So that night, I started on a journey that I know will continue throughout every season of my life: the journey of DAILY prayer. 

To be continued…

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